The feelings are real

The one thing that I relish most about being sober is feeling again. I used alcohol as a way to do the exact opposite, to feel nothing. My anxieties went away, problems seemed to fade, but also, happiness and joy wasn’t real. Without alcohol in my life, the struggles of everyday life don’t go away,…

Grasp

Your grasp on me was strong, it had tightened over the years, How hard I tried to free myself Your hold was inescapable But now I’m free and free I’ll stay

Keys to the Castle

So there I sit, the room is starting to fill up…  I look at the clock… it’s 6:30, the time has come. The gavel bangs the table… ‘Welcome to the 6:30 grapevine meeting, my name is Matt and I’m an alcoholic’ I’m chairperson for the first time. Im nervous, but excited. I know the routine,…